A little fucking honesty : ) Time to vent!!

Update: No urges to cut! Weight issues are still huge, like me! Prozac is a bitch and does not work any longer (im on the high mg)  I think I need something stronger.. So I will be put on a mood stabilizer! My therapist thinks im Bi-polar. Well ummm I've been trying to tell the mother fucker that for almost a year now.!! Any who even with all that I am doing pretty good.!!!

Today I have been with the love of my life Samantha for 5 years and 8 months : ) I can not stress enough HOW MUCH I LOVE THAT WOMAN!!! I dont EVER get jealous but to be honest here lately I am so jealous of all these straight people and their marriages. I would give anything to legally marry my sammie. I know just as much as she does we dont need that damn certificate but GODDAMNIT we want one!! We want all the privileges that "married" people have. It sucks to have to say she is my "sister" if we have to go to the ER for anything. It sucks we cant have a joint checking account or savings account. It sucks she cant put me on her health insurance or vise versa. It sucks we cant file a joint income tax. It sucks that we cant have a vehicle in both our names. It sucks we cant buy a house and it be in both our names. It suck a big fucking dick!!! All the little things that most people take for granted we cant have because of stupid IGNORANT ass fucking bigots!! Did you know that it is LEGAL in more states to marry your legal cousin than it is to marry someone of the same sex.. UMMMMM HELLO WTF!!! How does that make scene?? That is just fucking sick!!! Just to be clear I AM NOT comparing being a homosexual to fucking and marrying your cousin. I am just stating that this world is fucked up!!! If you want to marry your cousin go ahead but if you want to marry someone of the same sex its to bad. I do not understand why other people get to vote on if
I can marry my soul mate, NO one voted on "straight" marriage or that you can marry your cousin! I know the world has come a long way when it comes to people being homosexuals but I can not wait til the day comes where I can get on one knee and purpose to my woman and we actually be able to have a legit wedding!! We could move away to a state that recognizes same sex marriage but how is that fair. Why should we have to leave our home, our family to be in a civil union BTW they dont call it a marriage. Even in states its legal to"marry" someone of the same sex you're still not considered being "married".. It makes me sick!!! I am only 24 and people I went to school with have been married already and/or DIVORCED for years!! Some of them are in happy marriages and that is great, awesome for them I am happy for them!! I really am!! If you wanted to, you could  go to Vegas get married to a complete stranger then file for an annulment the next day. Hell you could do that as many times as you want as long as its "one man and one woman"!!! Well I could go on and on and on and on but I am going to stop there because My blood pressure is rising lol!!!

On another note we are getting another kitten soon!!! We are going to name it Charlie no matter the sex of the kitten unless it looks like it should be named something else!! We are so excited and so are Pranger and Walker!!!

That is it for now!!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY SOMEDAY LEGAL WIFE SAMANTHA KAY SUMMERVILLE!!!!! I love you so MUCH baby!!! <3 xoxoxox!! Thanks for being my everything, my love!!