It's an everyday struggle.....

Update: LezzbeHonest!!  My mouth is still sore from my traumatizing dentist appointment!! Now I have another tooth that needs to be pulled.. On top of that all 4 wisdom teeth need to come out!! So both sides of my mouth are sore and hurting.. Great! I am just over all my dental problems but I can only blame myself.. I have done so much damage to my teeth due to my bulimia.. On the 22nd at the dentist Dr.Peterson told me bulimia is extremely hard on your teeth because of the acid in your stomach.. So  I will probably have to have dentures at a early age or have veneers which are both very expensive.. Its hard to hear those things.. I am only 24 years old.. Its hard knowing I put myself in this situation.. I struggle with my image still to this day even though I dont binge and purge anymore the urge is still there and I face it everyday.. Im having a hard time right now because I cant really eat anything so its putting me in a bad mind set.. I haven't been full (from eating) since the 22nd of my dentist appointment. I am trying to stay positive but its hard.. My wife is helping me and I call my sponsor but I wont lie its very hard. That being said I have not relapsed so that's one thing working in my favor.

...........Other stuff!!!

I just watched Demi Lovato's Documentary on MTV and as cheesy as it sounds it helped.. She has been through a lot of the same thing I have and If she can do it I can.. My goal is to one day be strong enough to step out and help people like she does.. Maybe speak at seminars or start counseling teens.. Right now I am not at that point.. There are places around here that help and hot lines to call.. Ill post some info on some at the end of this blog.

My dads Birthday was on March 4th.. It was an amazing day despite my mouth being hurt and sore and my damn torn acl was acting up.. My brothers came with sammie and I to see dad.. It really made his day.. He hasn't seen them in a while so it was good to see him that happy.. My dad is a huge jokester so at one point he said something about how he was glad all 5 of his daughters were there for his b day.. So I was thinking well there is Dakota, Benny,mark and me and then I realized the 5th one was sammie.. That made me so happy that he openly admitted to thinking of sammie as his daughter.. That was pretty awesome to hear..
Michelle my step mom cooked a yummy dinner and I couldn't eat it..boo..but I took some home with me and snacked on the mashed potatoes.. Yumm.. Well thats about it I believe!! Peace and love!!     

Helplines and such!!!  Taking the first step is hard but you can do it!! 

Half Of Us : Welcome

www.halfofus.com/

Lookout Mountain Community Services, Welcome (LMCS is based on income & local) 

www.lmcs.org

Call NEDA For Help NOW | nationaleatingdisorders.org

www.nationaleatingdisorders.org

The Love Out Loud Campaign

www.loveoutloudcampaign.com/

Preventing Suicide Among LGBTQ Youth | The Trevor Project

www.thetrevorproject.org

Teen Suicide Prevention - It Gets Better Proudly Supports

www.itgetsbetter.org/About